Thursday, May 28, 2009

Baby Sister Time!

Last Tuesday and Wednesday I was able to spend some quality time with my youngest sister Erin! We had a blast! The first day my friend Jason and I took her out to Sandy Point out by Lucky Peak. The water was FREEZING, but it didn't seem to bother Jason or Erin too much. I repeatedly heard what a wimp I was, but I did my best! I enjoyed laying out while Erin went all over the 'beach' picking up bird feathers from the geese. I couldn't believe how many flocks of baby geese we saw. There must have been at least three of them. It was pretty cool, they were adorable!

That night we watched a movie with my roommate Stacey, who Erin absolutely adored. I can't think of what the movie was called, but it was with Hailey Joel Osmet and it had a lion in it. Haha, it was good though! We then went to bed at around 10:30p, way past her bed time!

Wednesday we got up and got ready to go to the zoo! We had a blast! We saw a lot of cute animals, but after seeing one side of the zoo we were ready to go! I then took her to my roommates old apartment pool. As soon as we arrived Erin said, "This pool doesn't look like fun!" Well it turned out that she had a blast playing with the other kids, while I laid out and relaxed. She's such a good kid. We then went home and had some girl time. We wore face mask while painting our nails! We then were so exhausted we went to bed. We both couldn't sleep and had the biggest sweet tooth! So we went to the gas station and we both got some treats. At around 11pm we finally went to bed…

Our time then came to an end. We woke up at a quarter till 7am and we drove back down to Fruitland where I dropped her off at home. I was able to see Evan for a little bit, but he ended up having a mini breakdown when he thought he was going with his dad to work, but ended up having to stay home. It broke my heart to see him so disappointed. I wish I could have taken him home with me, but I always wish that so that's nothing new!

I can't wait until I have some time off so I can go home and spend some time with the kids. I sure miss them both, especially my little boy. He's going to be two the end of this month, which is always a hard time of the year for me. Hopefully I'll be able to take the day off so I can spend it with him on his birthday.

Well that's all for now! I'll post some pictures later of our zoo trip!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

A New Beginning

Well.. I decided to start a blog so that my family and friends can keep track of what I'm up to; plus I love to blog :). Here I can rant and rant, oppose to using Facebook. I rather just have that to keep in touch with people... here you'll get to see my most inner thoughts- maybe if you're lucky.

Well I made it to summer after finishing my first year of college! I absolutely loved it and am surprised at how well I did. All A's and B's! This past year has been extremely stressful with breaking up with my boyfriend of two years. Break ups are so extremely hard, and can mentally drain you. We still keep in touch and are trying to work on a friendship; we'll see how that goes. At the same time I started some pretty intense therapy (sheepishly). I have worked on my childhood, some traumatizing stuff that happened in high school, my parents divorce, and placing my son up for adoption. Talk about mentally draining! I'm just happy I survived through all of it... barely; but I wake up every morning breathing, so I know I'll be ok.

I have been so lucky to have amazing support from amazing women I have come to meet in the past two years from an online support group for birth mothers. Not only have they been my support for my struggles with placing my son up for adoption, but have been there for everything else. I love these women! I also had support from my three best friends; Krystle, Jenna, and Andrea. I'm so lucky to be able to call these three girls my besties! I have known Krystle since kindergarten; we met on the school bus. I don't know if I asked or if she did, but it was the question, "Want to be bestfriends?" that started our strong friendship. We've gone from being dancers, to the spice girls, to the love interest of the backstreet boys, to the girls who were picked on, to a cheerleader and b-ball player, then to a future school teacher and doctor; who knows who or what we'll be next?

I've known Jenna since the summer before our freshman year. I was having one of my out of control hyper moments during a summer basketball practice... if I remember correctly I think I freaked Jenna out, but we've been best friends ever since! I remember when we first got our licence we drove around all over Fruitland wasting gas rocking out to Trapt. I absolutely love this girl. She is such an amazing-smart women, a great mother, and a great friend.

Andrea.. oh Andrea.. we met in daycare at the age of 6, we were in Judo together, we worked together in high school, and I always manage to piss her parents off one way or another EVEN when I wasn't the one doing anything BAD (like Andrea). I swear we both have the same lives... something happens to her, it'll later happen to me or vise versa! I love this girl to death! We'll be the two old ladies that live in a mansion with a ton of cats, but our house won't smell like piss or cat food... no worries. And I can't forget about the ladies I work with... Cathy and Sharmelle... Sharmelle knows all the dirt, and Cathy has been like a mother to me; love them! Wow... I so didn't mean to do any shout outs..

I feel like, in a sense, that I have a second chance at life; even though I haven't had a near death experience. I just feel more alive than ever. I don't believe I have ever felt this way. Instead of laying in bed I get up bright and early, go work out, eat healthy, and try my best to hang out with friends. I'm definitely working on smiling more. Surprisingly enough it actually helps my mood, haha. No wallowing in self-pity for me... It's a waste of time.

Since my new change of attitude I have had some pretty amazing opportunities cross my path. I got a new job as an Operating Room Assistant at the hospital I have been working for, for almost three years! I'm so ecstatic! It's exactly where I want to be! THEN, I get an email from the staff that handles all the education stuff at the hospital saying that I have been accepted into the reimburrsment program! I'll be getting 60% of my tution for each semester covered as long as I keep a 3.0 GPA!! I've been on cloud 9 since! Things are definitely starting to look up for me.

Well, that is it for now... I'm going to try my hardest to keep this blog going, but I'm not making any promises :).

Signing off... Anna